Happy hump day all!
After getting back into a rhythm at the gym over the last month, I was asked a very honest question by my workout instructor. She had asked if my fitness journey was started by self-love or self-hate. Truly, this question didn’t even need pondering because I knew in my heart that I started out this fitness journey with self-hate. I wanted to lose my baby weight, get back in shape, lose love handles, tighten my tummy, get rid of dimples, etc. As I began thinking of all the reasons I was back at the gym I came to realize that I have a heck of a lot of self-hate. I need to give myself grace and be much kinder to myself and my body. My entire body transformed to grow a human over 9 months, I can’t expect it to go back to normal right away. I am a role model for both my girls and would never let them know of any self-consciousness or body image issues I have. What I always tell them is what I need to constantly remind myself- I workout to get strong and to be healthy.
After setting out on this fitness journey (it’s only been a month as I just got released to workout postpartum), I am now finding myself going to the gym for self-love. Am I one that is super hyped and always looking forward to my workouts? No. But the gym is the only “me time” I get in a day and I carve out those 60-90 minutes to get a good workout in, reset, sweat, get my heart rate up, breathe, and destress. This instructor also reminded me that if I don’t prioritize this time and make it mine, someone will fill it. I show up for my classes with excitement to give it my all, have fun, make new friends, sweat, gain strength, be better than yesterday, and hope that the transition I want to see in my body will eventually follow. For now I am just enjoying getting my strength back, getting my butt kicked by the motivating instructors, sweating out all of the negative emotions, exhaling my stress, and inhaling the goodness that the gym brings. Results will follow- but until then, I am going to love and take care of the body God gave me and enjoy my fitness journey.
Talk with you all soon!